The Handmaiden

Handmaiden
The Handmaiden 13.05.17 The film was incidental, in a manner of speaking. A South Korean special, of dark sexual themes and exquisite detail and torture, it was a film that left no trace on me, or so I thought as I walked home, into Edinburgh's midnight mist. I went to bed soon after. I don't remember many of the dreams I had that night, but I reme...
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What's On?

Corbyn
What's On? 04.05.17 In the end, I didn't go to watch King Arthur . Money issues, among other things, told me not to. But for this weekend's cinema, a person whose tastes I respect has urged me to go and watch The Handmaiden , a South Korean special about pornography and crime within elegant surroundings. I'm aware the film reviewers loved it too. O...
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All Things Considered, A Better Week Gone By

Gina-07.05.17
All Things Considered, a Better Week Gone By 07.05.17 The rats have gone, the poison worked, for now. There was a crisis point last week as I ate dinner in the kitchen, and could hear a rat eating simultaneously behind a cupboard, eating the poison I'd left out for it, rat insouciance as if to say, 'Got any more?' But even Rasputin died in the end ...
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What's On?

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What's On? 04.05.17 I would be worried about the new King Arthur movie, if the legend hadn't been ruined already some thirteen years ago. I still remember the 2004 'version' in traumatic flashbacks, a film so bad it took me a decade to realize Clive Owen was good at acting. Of Ioan Gruffudd, however, I still dare not speak his name. What the hell k...
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01.05.17 Mad Max: Fury Road

Mad-Max
Mad Max: Fury Road (Black and Chrome special release) The Cameo 's large Screen 1 auditorium was near packed, for a 2015 film now regarded as a classic. It has been altered to the colours of black and chrome, arguably to give it a grainier, more nightmarish quality. I thought it was fine. It's a road movie in a desert world, the characters have the...
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Rats and Torture

1984
Rats and Torture 30.04.17 I was woken up yesterday at around 3am by sounds of scuffling behind me, behind my bedroom wall. It's a sound I haven't heard in months and it means the rats have returned. They originally appeared and disappeared last year, between November and January, my poison didn't seem to work, actually it seemed to encourage them. ...
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What's On?

Mad-Max
What's On? 28.04.17 The Mad Max movies were never my kind of dystopia. What is my kind? Probably a 'safe' bureaucratic Byzantium, like Terry Gillian's Brazil or Richard Ayoade's The Double , a world not unlike the totalitarian monoliths of the European past, a concrete land of broken heating or air-con where getting things done requires forms signe...
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26.04.17 Neruda

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Neruda This is a film of glacial beauty, of a noir-like detective who should be evil, hunting down a poet of the revolution through Chilean towns and villages into the snow drifts of the Andes. The detective though, is barely one at all, toyed with by the poet, Neruda, to the point where he questions his own existence, or whether he's just a charac...
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Sunday Skies

Serafin
Sunday Skies 23.04.17 How strange to read my previous post, the bitterness and hatred. Today outside is beautiful, blue skies and almost no one here in the study room because it's too nice to be here. My essay is done, I don't feel like doing anymore, have reached that saturation point where you're staring at words on a screen, and wondering what m...
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21.04.17 I Am Not Your Negro

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I Am Not Your Negro I knew nothing about James Baldwin, a lot more about Martin Luther King who features in this film from a distance. Baldwin was friends with three of the most important civil rights campaigners of their era in America: King, Malcolm X, and Medgar Evers. I hadn't heard of Evers and didn't know much about Malcolm X; this isn't the ...
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What's On? 21.04.17

What's On? 21.04.17
What's On? 21.04.17 The reviews haven't been great, but The Belko Experiment has to have one of the most interesting premises of any film this weekend. I've seen the trailer, so can you tell you this much: an office of staff finds themselves locked into their building, and told to murder each other otherwise they'll get killed themselves. As I'm wr...
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Alone In The System

Alone In The System
Alone In the System 18.04.17 I broke down today, in tears, in someone's office. It's the first time it's happened, crying in front of other people like this. A colleague from the university's staff pride network, I didn't know who else to turn to. I got a job rejection this morning. So many qualifications and so much experience for a post well with...
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One-year anniversary

One-year anniversary
One-year anniversary 16.04.17 It feels slightly ridiculous to write about my one-year anniversary of being out, full-time, as trans. It is, medically (or should that be bureaucratically?) an important moment because it means you can start discussing gender reassignment surgery with your doctor for real. That meeting comes in early May for me. Havin...
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What's On? 13.04.17

What's On? 13.04.17
What's On? 13.04.17 Black cinema is not something I know much about, and that's including Afro-American; by 'black' I'm not sure what I mean, except I guess cinema within a subculture, defined by a particular, disempowered ethnicity, the one I know as 'black,' especially relating to America. Is there just one 'black' cinema? Or do I see the colour ...
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Dealing With Failure

Dealing With Failure
09/04/17, Dealing With Failure It's a pivotal moment that didn't seem so pivotal after the event, though I know things are going to change in my life now. My application for funding for my studies got rejected on Monday. It is a big deal. It means I'm going to finish my studies in two years' time considerably poorer than when I started. I'll still ...
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Free Fire 09.04.17

Free Fire 09.04.17
09/04/17, Free Fire Two teams, one warehouse at night time, somewhere in Boston. The premise is clear, the gun deal falls apart as people start shooting at each other, everyone sucked into a gun battle, everyone soon covered in dust and blood, crawling and limping around, shouting to each other and at each other. Confusion really starts to reign as...
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07.04.17 What's On?

07.04.17 What's On?
07.04.17, Free Fire Having attacked John Wick 2 as nonsensical gun-porn, it might appear hypocritical of me to feature Free Fire as the most enticing screening this weekend. I am trying to understand my own decision. The film looks fun, in a deliberately retro 1970s kind of way. The cast looks promising, especially the clash of opposites: quiet, my...
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You Are Now Mentally Ready

You Are Now Mentally Ready
You Are Now Mentally Ready 03.04.17 I wake up in the darkness as the guitar music trails into nothing. The woman's voice on the twelfth and final recording of the NHS Mental Health and Wellbeing programme has faded back into the Middle Ages along with her guitarist. There were some words I can remember about the training she'd given, telling me I'm...
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Ghost in the Shell

Ghost in the Shell
02/04/17, Ghost in the Shell Bewildered anger from one friend afterwards, in the bar of Cameo cinema. A nonplussed, unimpressed set of views from another. I was embarrassed to compare ratings with them over cider, with my '6.5-out-of-ten' against their two and four. Is Ghost in the Shell so bad? This was its first Saturday showing, and Cameo had mo...
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What's On? 30.03.17

What's On? 30.03.17
What's On? 30.03.17 I'll start with Ghost in the Shell , because I've effectively been waiting for this film since I heard it was in production last year. Having reviewed the anime version (1995) upon which it's based, I'm going into this with the gentle let-down of having already read three-star reviews. Bearing in mind I wasn't 'crazy' about the ...
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