What's on this week

What's On?


What's On? 15.06.17

I could refer to The Mummy at Cineworld or Churchill at Cameo but there's a brightly coloured elephant in the room and its name is Gay Pride, coming to you, Edinburgh, this Saturday.

But first, some honesty. I really, really don't want to go to Pride. Shall I count the ways it will discomfort me? Here's three: contrived fun, loud noise, and people staring at you. If there's music, it will be Ibiza turned up full. Everything will be bright pink and garish (or tight black PVC), and people will be blowing their whistles at a piercing volume.

So those are some negatives, based on preconceptions by someone who's never been before. Why should I attend? I think because as someone who organizes trans-related events at Edinburgh University, I think I should. And related to this, the one place where I've been given an opportunity to organize and receive funding while here as a student is through my voluntary work with the University's Staff Pride Network. I do feel a growing gap between funded PhD students, and un-funded ones like me, in terms of opportunities and support. It is in this LGBT ghetto that I've found a zone that makes me feel wanted and involved, and this is a huge deal both when you've come out as trans and a student without a scholarship. I owe LGBT some requisite support. And this in itself hints at a more serious reason to back anything that supports LGBT people. When things have been bad, it's the LGBT scene that's often lifted me.

So like an awkward Christmas dinner with relatives – some of whom you can't stand – I will turn up. I kind-of want to be all Jonny Rotten and wear a T-shirt saying 'I fucking hate Gay Pride', just to warn whistle-blowing revellers to give me a wide birth. I'm not sure how I'll dress, but it won't be pink latex and six-inch heels. I don't think I'll be laughing, I tend not to laugh unless I find something to be funny.

Must try harder. Never mind the philosophies of Kant and Schopenhauer, the wisest thing ever said was by Bob Marley: Don't worry, be happy.

What's On?
What's On?


No comments made yet. Be the first to submit a comment
Thursday, 21 January 2021

Captcha Image

What's On This Week

My Latest Posts

December 22, 2020

Lacanian Icarus: when Gina flew too close to the sun?

On the recent experience of nearly being no-platformed There are two identities in one when it comes to being part of a disempowered minority. The first is for yourself: all your failings, your insecurities, your doubts, and connected to this, your curiosity and quirks. Let's be Lacanian analysts for a moment: what we're talking about is the transg...
November 17, 2020

If I were to detransition, this is what I would write

Warning: this is a speculative piece of writing, not an official announcement, although I have recently begun to imagine an 'ideological' detransition (from trans woman to GNC male). Here, I'm trying to articulate and reflect on my thoughts and feelings, and imagining myself from a different perspective. In this post, I'm Gina v...
November 17, 2020

Trans Hell-thcare

The picture accompanying this post is important to me. I took it yesterday, 16 November 2020, unsure what I'd find. It's been nearly eleven months since I came off oestrogen for reasons I'll get into in a moment. Undoubtedly this has had an effect on me, bodily and therefore psychologically, but the accompanying selfie gives me a reassura...
October 17, 2020

What if gender-critical feminism came to power?

This scenario is inspired by a dialogue I had yesterday evening with a gender-critical feminist just before I went to bed. Here is what I dreamed: In the summer of 2021, the Conservative minister Liz Truss introduces legislation, making women-only spaces legally accessible only to those born female. This U.K. law includes a provision for funding al...
October 13, 2020

Responses to my blog post (1)

A frustrating aspect of my website is that when people write in, there's no trace of an email address so no way of getting back to people, and also no way of publishing their messages. However, I received such a nice response to my article just now that I'd like to include it here. It's from some who for the sake of confidentiality (in case it's ne...
October 11, 2020

On adopting a more gender-critical transgender activism

On adopting a more gender-critical transgender activism Note to the reader: This post is intended as a contribution to addressing the current tensions between transgender activism and gender-critical feminism. The way I see myself in relation to female i dentity, and the ideas I express here, are not a prescription for other trans women. The t...
May 11, 2020

The Book of Queer Prophets, curated by Ruth Hunt

in Books

  The Book of Queer Prophets: 24 Writers on Sexuality and Religion The historically fraught relationship between Abrahamic religions and LGBT+ identities provides the backdrop to The Book of Queer Prophets , a collection of twenty-four meditations by public figures who identify as both religious and LGBT+. The book's curator, the for...
May 09, 2020

Queer/Transgender short film: Mesmeralda

Joshua Matteo's short film, Mesmeralda , merging horror with esoterica, is now out on youtube . As with his previous work Metanoia , we see youthful trans actors racing through the empty streets of a moonlit New York, haunted by symbols and stalked by a masked figure of violent intentions. Mesmeralda , as described by Matteo, is the companion ...
March 08, 2020

Sterile like the moon: the joys of transgender healthcare

Sterile like the moon: the joys of transgender healthcare Summer, 2016: Gina's Big Bang, as transitioning begins A bureaucratic question in a sun-lit room. My medical practitioner asks me if I intend to have children. The question lingers, but the self-loathing is instant. No, I won't be having children. The practitioner nods. She moves on to the n...