Transgender Life

I don’t want this site to be solely about being transgender. From my experiences so far, it’s not even something I could write about every week – being in the closet is far more intense and frustrating and writeable. However, there are moments when things happen, unique to trans people. I’d like to share those moments with you, and let you into the mystery.

Christmas Message December 2016

Christmas Message December 2016

23/12/16: Christmas message

I'm going away to a place without the Internet for a while. I won't write over Christmas, will be back in early January. This is my chance just to give everyone a season's greetings.

And to say a few things, just some reflections. I guess it's been quite a tumultuous year, globally, I don't think I need to explain why. On a personal level too, I did the thing I'd spent most of my life wishing to do but not having the courage or determination or whatever. It hasn't been easy, and I don't know how I'd be if I hadn't done it. I suspect in some ways better off, but in other ways, as hidden away as always. Being out is not something to improve your material conditions. It's simply something you do. Also: I published a novel, my first one, that's also a big deal to me. I joked in a previous post that I'm now immortal. I went online to see how Amazon are advertising it. They weren't, the last time I checked. I felt deflated and realized what immortality feels like: it feels like nothing. But hopefully Amazon will begin to advertise it soon.

I also ended a happy year at University with the kind of grade I never used to get close to. and met lots of interesting people, and made some close friendships. So all in all, when I think about it, it was a memorable year for me.

I don't know what will happen in 2017. I think the important thing is to do stuff. Chase your dreams. There's a bit from Cyrano de Bergerac, when a soldier warns Cyrano not to fight windmills because he might get snagged by the sails, and they will drag him into the dirt. "Or carry me to the stars."

Merry Christmas everyone, and a Happy New Year.



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